my 1st blog

At first I had no idea what i would write about, and then as i was sitting here staring at a blank page it hit me.

Let me tell you about where I started, it was around 14 years ago. I looked in the mirror and I had no idea who was staring back at me. Physically, emotionally, mentally ,I had no idea. I did know that I didn’t like the way she looked the way she felt, the way she thought of herself. That was the day I decided I was going to make a change. But where do I start? How do I start? We didn’t have a lot of money then lol( still don’t). Luckily the YMCA worked with people with low incomes. I was able to get a membership there and started going to the gym. I started just on the treadmills as I was too scared to do anything else, and to be honest I had no idea where to start. I knew that I wanted to loose weight…but how? That was the question! I decided that maybe I should start with some classes, it seemed like a good way to get motivated, and I didn’t have to try to figure out what I was doing. I was extremely scared to go into the class, there where a lot of people in there. All of whom seemed to have been doing it for a long time. The instructor of the class was just walking in and asked if I was going to join them. I thought about it and then she something to me that has stuck with me through the years and is something I share with the people who take my classes. ” We are all here for the same common goal”…….isn’t that the truth! The goal is to be better then we where before, to feel better about ourselves, to get stronger. To learn things about ourselves that we didn’t know, things we didn’t know we could do.

So 14 years ago I made a choice, I made the choice to change. Change my thought process, change the way I look the way I felt about myself. I changed the way ate, what I drank, what I did with my time. All of it! Was it easy no way, did I have bad days you betcha! Did I quit….no way! How could I, now not only was I doing it for myself I was doing it for my three little ones that where watching my every move! I learned to love myself, love myself in a way I didn’t think I could. If there is one thing I can tell you it is this, love yourself, love yourself on the bad days, the good day. Love yourself enough to be ENOUGH! Its ok to fail, as long as you get back up and keep going, keep being enough!!